The new school year is starting soon. I remember in September 2010 , how excited Rami was to go with the girls to get all they need for starting school in Beirut…. here we are four years later getting ready for school again, what a difference between then & now…. Only wish he was here to see how the girls are blooming, growing and progressing….. University starting too…. we will have the first lecture in this year’s activities of Rami’s corporate governance chair series at the Olayan School of Business at AUB, as well as a round table… soon . keeping his dreams alive….hoping that spreading the awareness about the necessity of CG for companies, banks, government will be a tool to reach best business performance that Rami aimed for. Mum, You have left us too soon…. the pain of losing you will never go, but knowing that your spirit is always soaring high, that you are always around every day, every minute eases a bit the void you left behind. May you RIP for ever…… and our Love keep you alive in our hearts….
Habibi,, visiting your resting place and seeing your name engraved on the white marble is so hard… it just tells me true you are not with us any more… true I wont see you any more…. but when I listen to the Ayat describing what is awaiting you in heaven, I imagine you there living a serene happy life… yes you are not on earth any more true, but your journey is continuing there in another world….( khalidena fiha), having an eternal life !!!!
Nouri visited you last week too, when the boys visit Beirut they go to you, Toufic, Saif, Fouad, Karim.. and others too. They all wish you were still here for they miss you as much as I do….they see your girls and through them they see you !!!
Ramadan is reaching an end, Eid is here and we will be celebrating with out you sharing with us the festivities… your place is always there every minute every day, your spirit is sharing with us our days and night…. I know deep down you are looking over us , keeping an eye on us, sending us your thoughts ……
Kul Eid wa inta bikhair habibi…. may your soul rest in peace …
Love you and miss you terribly.
MUM
My heart forever my dear brother will be broken ….I truly am finding it so hard for life to go on without you…
Don’t leave me in all this pain Don’t leave me out in the rain Come back and bring back my smile Come and take these tears away I need your arms to hold me now The nights are so unkind Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
Unbreak my heart Say you’ll love me again Undo this hurt you caused When you walked out the door And walked outta my life Uncry these tears I cried so many nights Unbreak my heart My heart
Take back that sad word goodbye Bring back the joy to my life Don’t leave me here with these tears Come and kiss this pain away I can’t forget the day you left Time is so unkind And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Unbreak my heart Say you’ll love me again Undo this hurt you caused When you walked out the door And walked outta my life Uncry these tears I cried so many nights Unbreak my heart My heart Heart
Don’t leave me in all this pain Don’t leave me out in the rain Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Unbreak my heart Say that you’ll love me again Undo this hurt you caused When you walked out the door And walked outta my life Uncry these tears I cried so many, many nights unbreak my
Unbreak my heart, Come back and say you love me Unbreak my heart Sweet darlin’ Without you I just can’t go on
You were always my wonder wall Rami…
Send “Wonderwall” Ringtone to your cell Today is gonna be the day that they’re gonna throw it back to you By now you should’ve somehow realized what you gotta do I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
Back beat, the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is out I’m sure you’ve heard it all before but you never really had a doubt I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk are winding And all the lights that lead us there are blinding There are many things that I would like to say to you But I don’t know how
Because maybe You’re gonna be the one that saves me And after all You’re my wonderwall
Today was gonna be the day but they’ll never throw it back to you By now you shoulda somehow realized what you’re not to do I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
And all the roads that lead you there were winding And all the lights that light the way are blinding There are many things that I would like to say to you But I don’t know how
I said maybe You’re gonna be the one that saves me And after all You’re my wonderwall
I said maybe You’re gonna be the one that saves me
Send “Hurt” Ringtone to your cell Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face You told me how proud you were, but I walked away If only I knew what I know today, ooh, ooh!
I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away Thank you for all you’ve done, forgive all your mistakes There’s nothing I wouldn’t do to hear your voice again Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won’t be there
Oh, I’m sorry for blaming you For everything I just couldn’t do And I’ve hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won’t admit Sometimes I just wanna hide ’cause it’s you I miss And it’s so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand? Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am? There’s nothing I wouldn’t do to have just one more chance To look into your eyes and see you looking back
Oh, I’m sorry for blaming you For everything I just couldn’t do And I’ve hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day I would tell you how much that I’ve missed you Since you’ve been away
Oh, it’s dangerous It’s so out of line To try and turn back time
I’m sorry for blaming you For everything I just couldn’t do And I’ve hurt myself By hurting you
Send “My Immortal” Ringtone to your cell I’m so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave Your presence still lingers here and it won’t leave me alone
These wounds won’t seem to heal, this pain is just too real There’s just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I’d wipe away all of your tears When you’d scream, I’d fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light Now, I’m bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone But though you’re still with me, I’ve been alone all along
When you cried, I’d wipe away all of your tears When you’d scream, I’d fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me……
Send “One Sweet Day” Ringtone to your cell Sorry, I’ve never told you, all I wanted to say And now it’s too late to hold you ‘Cause you’ve flown away So far away
Never had I imagined Living without your smile Feelin’ and knowing you, hear me It keeps me alive, alive
And I know you’re shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way And I know eventually we’ll be together One sweet day Eventually I’ll see you in Heaven
Darling, I never showed you Assumed you’d always be there I, I took your presence for granted But I always cared And I miss the love we shared
I know you’re shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way And I know eventually we’ll be together One sweet day one sweet day Picture a little scene from Heaven
Although, the sun will never shine the same I’ll always look to a brighter day Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep You will always listen as I pray
And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way And I know eventually we’ll be together One sweet day
And I know you’re shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way And I know eventually we’ll be together One sweet day
Sorry, I never told you All I wanted to say
Miss you dearly and I can’t believe I am writing to you for this purpose. We all miss you, and know that you are looking out for your three angels and family with teta and jiddo from heaven 🙂 and tante ne3mat 🙂
miss you so much xxx
My God how time passes. It seems only yesterday that I had my last conversation with you… Next month it will be 3 years since you left us… I don’t know how they passed… the only thing is your girls are growing , blooming and I talk to you , asking you if you are happy with the way they are turning out … you had hopes and dreams and wanted to raise them with your guidance and love…. I pray to fulfill your dreams… Not a day passes with out talking about you… of things you did, words you said… with friends, with colleagues, with people we meet… you are with us what ever we do… you will always be…. I miss you more as days pass by— tears wont bring you back, but it soothes the pain I feel… I visit your grave and look at your name… I still find it hard to believe… I wish only wish if you are not gone ! if you are still with us… Nothing is the same with out you …. Life’s meaning has changed with out you…. you said in your video , (turbulent time is ahead of us ),,,, definitely it was very turbulent and is still is … our personal life for sure has been, and it will take time for the storm to settle and for the boat to sail its course… Economy is still in a turbulent phase, and our local and national security is at a very turbulent stage…. I wonder some times , what action you would have taken in these crisis ? we miss your wisdom , your love , your care…
God has his own ways , his own judgment of issues and situations and we have to accept his WILL… loosing you is not easy, but thinking you are happy where you are, watching over us gives me inner peace….. I miss you and await the day when we meet again… until then I send you my love…may your soul rest in peace…..
Happy Father’s Day Rami, my God my dear brother , words will never be enough to describe how much I miss you and how much life has been so difficult to understand since you left us so early . It’s made me so scared of life and death but then again maybe I should learn from your path of religion and follow the Holy book and the religion that we follow to feel safer and understand the idea of being “born to die”. I wanted to come to visit you and ESP on Father’s Day but I think I just have been trying to avoid visiting because I still can’t believe your gone and I cry every night and I know it hurts you to see me like this or to hear me Cry whilst your In heaven but what can I say, I lost my only brother and the one I loved so so so much. I’m honoured to have been given the responsibility of looking after and raising the girls, a reminder every day of your wonderful being but it’s also a painful reminder everyday for me that you are not here. They made cards for you. We put them near your photograph that welcomes everyone when they enter the 3rd floor , the family floor. I miss you so dearly . And when I come visit you don’t be angry or upset when I cry as if you have just died yesterday but I won’t be able to help myself. Mama and baba are so strong , they are truly warriors like the Makhzoumi tribe movie you made, they are living proof of that! I wish I can make them proud and make you proud whatever life will give but I know I must reach out and grab to get where and what I want but I guess I’m just not as brave as all of you but I hope I can learn to be. I love you rami I will never get over the fact that you’ve left so soon and if I have ever or am disappointing you I hope I can become a better person and more like the person I want to be and you would like me to be. Forever your little sister , camo
Rami, it’s been 2 years 1 day and counting …. And not a day goes by I don’t think of you, hear you but I just wish I could see you, touch you, smell your cologne and the sweet scent of cigar on your skin and be able to just sit and watch you from a far if I can’t be allowed to hold you and be in your arms again, I was remembering the times when you were in 47a and you would sometimes invite me in to sit with you… I miss those days as i miss you. I remember how I used to go up to Buckinghamshire and visit no mans land just to check on you with mum over the weekends and help you hang your clothes when you first arrived to university when you were there to do your masters . Oh how I miss having an older brother, not just any brother but YOU as my brother. I miss being Rami’s little sister and though forever I will be by blood and by birth … I know I’ve lost you and lost you for good. I’ve only see you once in my dreams since your passing and it was so real, so intense, so emotional I woke up crying and begging you not to go , holding on to your feet and your legs wishing you would come back but when I realised I was on my room and on my bed I knew that it was only a dream, and sometimes I wonder if the life I’m living in right now is a nightmare or a dream gone bad and one day I will close my eyes and everything will be ok again. But I know not to wish for things that can’t be true or ever come back, cause once you left I knew deep down you would be forever gone but forever in my heart,in my mind and in my soul . I love you big brother , missing you dearly ….
Rami, it’s been 2 years 1 day and counting …. And not a day goes by I don’t think of you, hear you but I just wish I could see you, touch you, smell your cologne and the sweet scent of cigar on your skin and be able to just sit and eat h you from a far if I can’t be allowed to hd you and be in your arms again, I was remembering the times when you were in 47a and you would sometimes invite me in to sit with you… I miss you. I remember how I used to go up to Buckinghamshire and visit no mans land just to check on you with mum over the weekends and help you hang your clothes when you first arrived to university there to do your masters . Oh how I miss having an older brother, not just any brother but YOU as my brother. I miss being Rami’s little sister and though forever I will be by blood any by birth … I know I’ve lost you and list you for good. I’ve only see you once in my dreams since your passing and it was so real, so intense, so emotional I woke up crying and begging you not to go , holding on to your feet and your legs wishing you would come back but when I realised I was on my room and on my bed I knew that it was only a dream, and sometimes I wonder if the life I’m living in right now is a nightmare or a dream gone bad and one day I will close my eyes and everything will be ok again. But I know not to wish for things that can’t be true or ever come back, cause once you left I knew deep down you would be forever gone but forever in my heart,in my mind and in my soul . I live you big brother , missing you dearly ….
